My Glove has a hole!

Last night we were driving home from a Christmas party at Jesse's Aunts house when Ruby said from the back seat that her glove had a hole in it. We asked her how it got a hole and she told us her tummy said to eat it?!? Then she said, "LOOK at the hole mom". Sure enough there was a tiny hole in her glove. I told her not to eat it because it would make her sick, but she informed me that her tummy requested it and still wants more. I told her to tell her glove no or it would be put in time out. Which she happily replied, "Yeah, put it in time-out!" Silly Ruby!

its about time....

Well the title of this post has more than one story behind it. First, I have finished school.........YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! I can't even tell you how excited I am. I feel like I have been reborn...Life Begins Again!!(from a movie) I have all of these plans of what I will do to fill in the time I used to study, do homework, write papers, etc, etc, etc. I am going to catch up on what new TV series, read a lot of books (that I want to), laundry, dishes, organize my house, cook, etc....the list goes on and on. I know doing laundry and dishes, and organizing, and cooking may not sound fun to some but I cannot tell you how thrilled I am to do them. I want to get my life in order. During school everything else was pushed to the back to make time to study or squeeze in a little time with Jesse and Ruby. I am also going to work on my blog. Over the weekend I was inspired to do my blog for my kids when they grow up. I want them to have something to look back on and remember with pictures and thoughts on important milestones and just day to day life. So here it goes.

My second thought was while cooking dinner tonight ruby said something that I thought was funny and so to begin documenting day to day life and ruby-isms! Today's ruby-ism was while I was making dinner. This is how the conversation played out:

Ruby: "what's that smell?"
Me: "dinner"
Ruby: "no, its smells"
Me: "I know, its dinner"
Ruby: "its smells like dog food"
Me: "what?? it smells yummy. its just chicken"
Ruby: "well it smells like Maddox's dog food"

Maddox is Jesse's mom and dad's dog. I was going to post pictures but the ones I wanted to post I cant access. Anyhow this is today's story!!

A big THANK YOU!

I don't even know where to start. I can't even express how thankful I am to all my family and friends who helped out during this difficult time. Your out pouring of love and prayers is just astounding to me that even now I can't hold back the tears. All of your love and support has made my recovery so much easier.

I keep thinking about what I should take away from this experience. I have been reminded of the amazing amount of love and people that surround my life on a daily basis. I could not ask for a better family and group of friends. Because of all of you my journey through life is all the more enjoyable and easier to get through hard times. It has taught me patience................Well at least got me on the track to learning patience. I will be the first to admit that I am not a very patient person. Once I decide I want something I think I need it that second. After I decided I wanted another beautiful, funny, and full of energy child like Ruby, I thought it would be so easy. I thought why wouldn't it be easy. That in itself has taught me respect for people who have to go through adoption to achieve a family they desire so badly. I know that this is in Heavenly Father's Plan. He knows their are children out there who need families that will love them as if they were their own. I have always had the thought of adoption in the back of my mind, and even though I can't afford that either, I know I just need to have faith and know there is a plan for me. It might take awhile to reveal what that plan is but I am at peace knowing that I have a wonderful family to spend my time with until then.

Again, thank you to all of you whether it was a phone call, visit, dinner, flowers, or watching Roo Bug or many offers of help, I honestly can't say thanks enough! I am overwhelmed with emotion.

Love you all!!!